Roses

My work roommate became ill this year. While she is certainly on the mend, to say it was an easy time would be an understatement.

To thank her cohort for their support, she crafted a vase for each of us. Mine sits on my front entry table, which is slowly being refined into the common-area family altar space.

After Witchlette’s dance recital, we got some roses and they have been sitting nicely for a little over a week. Just a few days ago, they started the really show signs of wilting.

The kids realized something beautiful happened to the felled petals when they were put in the stream of the oil diffuser.

Needless to say, felled rose petals became plucked rose petals and before I knew it, there were no more rose petals.

BUT

The Littles had a surprise for me waiting in my bedroom.

They used the rose petals, along with a few silk petals, to decorate my Frigg totem “because Allmother likes pretty things.”

I am so beyond blessed.

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Observations

Yesterday, driving home from school, the kids and I passed an abandoned church. Witchlette saw it, and the cross sitting high above it, and the three of us had the following conversation:

W4: Mama, is that x a Jesus x?

M: yes it is

W4: why is it there

M: the people who follow Jesus as their god go to that church. They know it’s a Jesus church because of the cross on top.

W2: the star?

W4: no that’s an x for Jesus

W2: who’s Jesus?

W4: another god but not our god. What other gods are there?

M: lots and lots of God’s from lots of different places

W4: like who?

M: Thor, Odin, Frigg are all from Germany. I wonder if Ms. S (Pre-K teacher) holds Ganesha, Buddha, or Jesus as her god. Or maybe she doesn’t have a god.

W4: who’s Ganesha?

M: a god from India

W4: like Ms. S!

W2: I think her has a yellow Buddha like we have a blue Buddha

M: maybe

W2: who’s Jesus

W4: the x god

W2: I like Heimdall

W4: I like Skadi

Declaration

It was less than a ago when Witchlette declared Skadi to be her goddess.

This morning, Witchling was going through the days of the week.

“Who’s day is today?” he asked.

“Sunna’s day.”

“When is Thor’s day?”

“Thursday.”

“When is Loki’s day?”

“Yesterday, Saturday.”

“What about Odin?”

“Wednesday.”

“When is Heimdall’s day?”

“Heimdall doesn’t have a day.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know. He doesn’t.”

“Heimdall is my God!”

“He’s a good God to have”

I haven’t shared a formal declaration to the kids. That is something they can decide to do when they are older. Yet, I still think the gods of old are speaking through my little ones. They have found a willing audience.

Hail! Blessed be!

Dreams

This morning, Witchling remained in bed until shortly after 7. Yay Saturday!

When he started to sound restless, I called in on his monitor and invited him to come lay with us until Witchlette awoke and they could have tablet time together.

I asked him how he slept, and he said good. He then said he had dreams.

What did you dream of?

[Semi-indistinguishable]

Cars?

No, Gods.

Oh! Which ones.

Loki and Thor. Does Thor have a hammer?

Yes.

What does Loki have?

Magick.

No, he holds something. … Is Loki a good guy or a bad guy?

He can be a good guy, but he also can be a bad guy.

Oh. Is Iron Man a good guy?

Yes.

Ok. Can we watch cooking videos?

My main takeaway is that while most of what he understands of the lore is still based in Marvel, he distinguishes heroes and Gods. It’s definitely a start.

Bedtime yeah buts

The bedtime “yeah but”s is a now a new phenomenon in my house. It’s been a semi-regular occurrence since Witchlette was 2 1/2. 

Last night I felt that I finally had an answer to all of the “yeah but”s which also stopped them. 

Last night, after reading her book, blowing out her candle, and telling her another Asgard story…

Mama, please…I need company. 

[Witchlette], there are two things Mama needs to keep being a good, sweet, patient Mama. Do you remember what they are?

Food and I don’t know. 

Sleep. Food and sleep. Mama is very tired and I need to go to sleep myself so that I can rest and be a good patient sweet Mama tomorrow. And you need to go to sleep because you have a big day with A’s birthday party. 

Ok Mama. But I can’t find Horton. 

/Pulls Horton lovey off elbow and drops onto face/ You don’t mean the one you were snuggling with already?

Oh. Mama. 

Food and sleep [Witchlette]. It’s very late (for you). I love you, good night. 

Balder’s dreams

This evening for Asgard Stories, I cautiously relayed to Witchlette Balder’s dreams: he dreams of his own demise and Odin travels to Helheim to speak with a seeress to learn of Balder’s fate and it told he will die and spend forever in Helheim. 

Witchlette immidiately went into a panic. Was her favorite destined to die? 

I attempted to calm her with reassurance of his impending return, [rising from Helheim to lead with Magni, Modur, Thrud and the children of the older generation of gods] by comparing his death to sunset and sunrise. 

To no avail. 

So, taking her lead and seeing how I had gone to far and gave her more than she could handle, continued the story. Frigg went and sought a promise from every person, every animal, every thing to not hurt Balder. The gods then had a party by throwing items at Balder- throwing knives and swords, shooting arrows, tossing stones. They all gently hit him then fell to the floor. No harm done. 

And that’s it. 

I will not continue through the rest of Ragnarok until she shows she’s ready for it. 

Theism

Polytheism. Monotheism. Athiesm. They all revolve around the belief of a deity. I am growing into a hard polytheistic, but I still have strong roots in spiritual Elemental athiesm. 

I believe I have shared this before, but it beats repeating. 

At a social gathering one night at CotE, B and I were talking about Witchlette and how I used Thor to help her overcome her nervous reaction to thunder storms. Over the course of one car ride, she went from panicking each time she saw lightening and/or heard thunder to seeking out lightning so she could see Thor. He shared a story of his friends’ children and how he showed them to clap and the sound they made with their hands is the same as thunder, only theirs isn’t as loud because the clouds were bigger. I had done that with Witchlette as well and shared with her the science behind thunder to parallel the Thor piece. 

He, being a Celtic Druid from Ireland, then shared his theory of science and spirituality. 

The Druids paid attention to the natural world and took in the natural order. They explained the natural world to their tribe. They were the first scientists, and they used spirituality to share their message. They would watch clouds gather at the mountain and the rain fall in the valley. This would happen again and again. They saw how furtile the land was due in large part to the rains. So they explained to their tribe the best place for them to settle is in the valley. There, they will have food and water and sustain. Why move? Well, I had a dream and the gods told me to move to the valley. In my dream, they said in the valley we will be fruitful. 

Witchlette has been regularly getting Asgard stories at bedtime. Last night was Ottar’s ransom. A few nights ago, it was Thor versus the Midgard Serpent, where he pulls Jörmungandr into his fishing boat. That night, she explained to Hubby how Thor isn’t real and the giant snake isn’t real, they’re just stories. 

I started my spiritual journey on spiritual atheism. I got a spiritual high from science and I believed, and still do, what we call science is Magick explained and what we call Magick is science not yet explained. They’re two sides of the same coin. It seems Witchlette is on the same path: she understands things from a scientific perspective but is still in awe in the beauty of it. She still says with one breath thunder is the clouds crashing back together after lightning, and in the next breath says it’s Thor. She sees it hand in hand, but as already stated that it’s just stories. 

I’m glad she has this world view. I’m very grateful that she is a growing into a good person for the sake of being a good person. It seems I am raising a spiritual atheist with flecks of polytheism. Cool. 

It makes me wonder what the future has in hold for her. But I’m loving every day right now.