As with every other day on the calendar, this one comes round once a year.
Every year up to now, I acknowledged the day with a quick Facebook post and an activity centered around your memory. An activity centered around my healing.
Saturday morning I awoke and silently acknowledged the day. But I didn’t say or do anything.
Because I have two fabulous little ones before me presently and I want to be in the now with them. And they deserve a Mama who is presently in the now with them.
Because I can’t continue to move forward if I keep stepping backwards.
Because I can’t carry both of you.